Lots of stuff has happened since I’ve been gone.
Two weeks ago I tried IUI for the first time. I got my period yesterday so it didn’t work. I was a day late and I’m never late when I’m on fertility drugs. That coupled with the fact that I had HORRIBLE cramps yesterday makes me wonder if I was pregnant for a little while and it terminated. A lot of women who have miscarried talk about the horrible cramps they had afterward. I’m one of the fortunate few who never get cramps. I got them once or twice when I first started having a period way back when. But yesterday? Then last night? Not to mention a week ago I got so nauseous for two hours I couldn’t leave my house. Then for a day or two I felt light nausea.
I feel like I was briefly pregnant then something went wrong.
Yesterday I did some research on obesity and infertility and found an article/research that suggests women who are overweight may have more issues with chromosomal abnormalities with their eggs than women who are a healthier weight. Maybe that’s my problem. I kinda knew that my weight was an issue but because of my PCOS I’m having a horrible time losing the weight. As long as I’m on birth control I can maintain my weight. After I went off of the pill all hell broke lose.
I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
Well, I’m going to have to continue fighting. Yesterday I made the decision to take two months off of fertility drugs to do an intense weight loss program. I’m going to be using appetite suppressants, diet and exercise to lose some more weight. This has to work b/c my doctor recently told me that my sugar numbers have gotten worse.
I’m too young for this shit!
It’s so hard
dealing with someone who has a mental illness. I’m so stressed. I’m trying to help him but it feels like he’s fighting me every step of the way.
I’m having a hard time figuring out when to put my foot down because he’s not thinking clearly. After all he is an adult and it is his life.
I’m so stressed.
I’ve been gone
for way too long. It’ll take me forever to catch up on everyone’s life.